oops... after 3 weeks...:P

Hey guys, I was really busy preparing for my examinations, so i did not really find time off for blogging.. heez...

Wa... The DSH examination is coming. It is super round the corner... i think its like on the 15th of september or something, i cant remember. The preparation for the examination is really stressful. Its like books everyday, all studying and no playing. It horrible. I tried to find time off on saturday and sunday to do something which i really like to do, but i cant really do it. The thought of the examination is really scary.

I was really stressed out on my first week of my new lesson. The people in my class are like WA!!! They know their german like at the back of their hand. Its really funny but i felt like a noob in the class. You have to remember the fact that I was asked by the principle in the school to jump a level. Its totally crazy. Most of them have already attended at least 8-10 months of german lessons. I have only attended 4 months of lessons and I am going to take the same examination with them.

Its not so bad now, but try studying with super noisy neigbours who just cant go to sleep!! Its horrible!!!

Anyways, examinations just two weeks round the corner... I really want to get a good grades, not just so that I can go into University, but I wanna glorify GOD with it too!!

Yucks... My chinese were telling me how bad my chinese is deteroriating!! ai ya!!! crap la... Get it done with the DSH examination and I start to use Chinese to communicate!!!

I suddenly miss church so much... I mean City Harvest Church... hmm, i guess i have to grow with it. There are ways how GOD want us to grow... I suppose this is one of them. When you do not have the comfort of your local church, are you able to stay strong for GOD and be a faithful Christian?

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Today is the day, I finally updated my blog!!! WooHoo!!

I guess this will be the only way i wll be able to update my cell group, my family members and my fans( hahaz, u know who u are!!) , to come and read more about me and my life in Germany. Well, I am not flying as yet, but i will be 6 more days from now... Wa, very fast le

I never really share this online but since you are here and would wanna know what have i been doing the past few days, i shall tell you then. The entire week this week was pure living stress. I woke up 7 in the morning, do my usual excercise, and start to go searching over what have i not bring to Germany. I made plenty copies of the certificates, get them stamped and certified by the German Embassy, go down to DAAD to make sure that i am ready for my trip. ARGH!!!! CAN DIE U KNOW!!!! In the end, I would be spending more than enough time trying to figure out what have i not done, what have i not bring... its just pure insanity. Thank GOD i have pulled through that period of time.. Hallelujah

The video was finally shown. After the farewell lunch at pastamania just now at around two in the afternoon, I turned on my laptop, plugged in the speakers, and showed them my masterpiece. It is good, i suppose, as the cell group where laughing and clapping at some of the stupid pose i have made, or some of the candid things i got the cell group to do. Hahaz.. Really wanna thank Siew Peng, Xiao Hui and Charlene for making it possible. However, no one really know how much effort i have put in it. I spent two days just listening to the song to make sure that i am able to come up with ideas for the chronographing. The next two weeks i was chasing the sisters for the photo. I had to work, and had to force myself to finish the video. After all, I really wanted something that could touch their hearts. However, i have realised that it is not how well the video is, but its about how much you have impacted your members. I love my cell group members alot, and would spent quite a fair share of my time fellowshipping with them. Although I do get tease by them, but I enjoy their company because they are truely my friends I will see when I go to heaven. Well done my dearest cell group members!!

Bing Han, I am so gonna miss hugging you. I cant help it, i just love hugging you!! Audrey, we always talk crap about bleach after cell group, and just talk nonsence sometimes. I am like so gonna miss that, but dont worry, i will buy something back from germany to let you have it okie :P ? Eliz, I am not there to disciple you physically, but do talk to me online okie? We will fight the fight of emo together! Vivian, you want my shoe bag? I will let you savekeep it if you want, i will come back for it! Alwin, Jonathan, Ming Hui, SZ, you are the next generation of brother in the cell group le. Excercise manhood, and i really hope to see you all rise up to help out in the cell group. Avail yourself to help your cell group members by showing one another care and concern okie? Alvina, love you lots, didnt know that you are also pretty wacky at times.
Pb, stop suanning people la! I know you only do it to me, but it doesnt matter. Bob, I am so gonna miss praise and worship together with you. Dont worry, i will come back for you!! Charlene Malcolm Yuling, we went through thick and thin together, we have been thru disciplees togther, i really hope to be the previlege to come back and serve together with you all again!!

Stay tune for more updates...

countdown : 6 more days

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Hey, check out this song... It is so romantic. I would want to play this song for that special someone someday!! Just imagine, my guitar, the beach, the sunset, just me n her...
No one else... Den i start to sing this song..(wow...)



It was no accident, me finding you
Someone had a hand in it, long before we ever knew
when he joined these two hearts
I hold everything when I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars


Soft moonlight on your face, oh how you shine
It takes my breath away, just to look into your eyes
I know I don't deserve, a treasure like you
there really are no words, to show my gratitude

So I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything when I hold you in my arms
I've got all i'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars

This song is by Tracy Byrd. Although it is a country song,but it just sound so sweet!!! Hahaz!! Thank you LORD for blessing good music in my life... I will show you all another song which i composed next blog.

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I really hope that my craziness does not hit on the high gear again. I just cant commit. Yea, I like someone, but i just cant commit. And when the person knows about it, I run away.. I mean, what the.. I prayed about it, and am fasting about it this week.( so friends, if i never join u all and eat, u know le hor...)

I take charge in cell group. When BeeLeng is busy, I will take charge in organising the members. It is only since just now that I had went overboard. I have become very arrogant in my speech. I ended up telling Bee Leng what to do!! Oh my.. The bible has asked us to submit to authorities, and there i am, telling my leader what to do. I was called for counselling, of cos, and it was horrible!! However, I want to be discipled, so the more mistakes, the more open i am for discipleship. OUCH!!!

GOD, only u can save me. HELP ME!!!

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Yea, the date says it all.. 6 more days to parade... YEA!!!!!!!!!

I was talking to Bee leng just now about meeting her for bible study just now and she suddenly said something about me and that particular person. (oops...) She told me that I get to fall in love too easily and my vow is actually more like running away from my feelings than making it to resist temptations. Yes, I am running away from it, because I am not in my right frame of mind. I have actually kindda give up on relationship le. I feel that dating has become too superficial, there is no substance in dates at all. AND if I really become one with her, WAD AM I SUPPOSE TO DO??? I am in army now and my ONLY date was in college and it was more like a studying buddy than a date... yucks... I am rather clueless about relationships and stuff, so, you guessed it. I ran away from it. I even told my mum that I might consider going single. Sounds dumb right? Well, sounds like i do not even have a single bit of confidence in myself. ARGH!!! My mum knew that I liked her cos although I did not tell her that I like (her), she kept on asking me whether I am going out with this NJ girl I kept on mentioning to her about. YES MUM!!! I admit your son likes her, and your stupid son is running away from it. How stupid can I be? Well, what Bee Leng said was true too. If God has made me and her, there is no need to run away from it. We will still be together. AND THERE IS NO POINT RUNNING AWAY FROM IT... Bee Leng was quite happy that I made the vow before going over to Germany, but she wants me to pray about (her) first. yepp, I prayed and i prayed.

Yes, I prayed and i fasted. FOR HER!!! Everything I had done for the past one week was solely on her. In fact, I will be praying next week just about her. I dun wanna lose the vision GOD has given to me, and yet not lose the vision of a perfect family... Aiyo.... I am pretty stressed up now.. Shouldnt think about this... This is driving me INSANE!!! yes, mav does get insane..

Still waiting for my German examination grade, cos once i have that cert, i can proudly say that my german has a certain standard le. Waiting and still waiting...

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Today was one very fruitful day i guess... We shifted alot of water bottles from national stadium to camp. It was not really a pleasant experience in the morning because we had to wait for every one to settle down... wa.. The worst part would be waiting for the water bottles. We waited for 3 hrs just for the water bottles to leave the causeway and reach national stadium. Everything was so not fast, like NOT in captical letters.

FDS has trained me and my fellow GOH sai gang party members to be on the ball at all times. Guess that was the reason why we are not very happy when the few technicians joined us for the carrying of bottles. I mean, if they are of some help, we would gladly work with them. However, that was not the case. There was one guy, codenamed dragonball( due to his hairstyle), was taking his own sweet time to carry the bottles and that has really fustrate us. We are like the people who are dieing to finish the sai gang and there he was, taking his own time. I am sure there were times like this where you just wanna ask him to get lost and take over his job. However, we are under close supervision by a warrant, so I did not really do anything to him. Just imagine what would happen to him if the warrant was not there.

I cant wait for the preview this saturday. It will be just like the actual day, same ambience, everything would be the same. I am praying very badly that there will not be any screw up at any point of the parade. The previous two had left me sleepless le, I dont want another sleepless night. Yes, I take drills very seriously, and I cannot stand people who joins GOH just to slack around in bunk and not motivated with the drills. I guess I had this spirit of excellence in me, but yet I dare not shout at people, so I would tell the people around me about their drill problems nicely. Hey, you cant blame me, I am also doing it for the contingent. I love what I am doing, so I will not want to quit and slack around.

GOD save the GOH, I pray to you this evening.

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Well, it has been a pretty tiring day today. Met Kelly in the morning to get back my fifty bucks, den meet Clara at Woodlands. Was having a hearty talk with Clara when I found out that the duration in Church does not really matter... As long as your focus in Church is wrong, you are practically going the wrong way. She shared with me about this guy who is in her cell group, (i will not disclose his name due to privacy interest), had been spiritually strong b4, but it seems to me that he is turning money into idols. His vision and dreams are money oriented, and everything around him seems to be very messy. He chooses friends like choosing clothes, he hardly has long close friends, he was even suspended from becoming a choir helper... Well, if a guy in church for seven years can "backslide" until this stage, what more can a young believer be? Guard your hearts, young believers who are reading my blog, for only the righteous shall inherit the ends of the Earth.

Clara reminded me on a very important fact about the end times.. We are in the end times, if you did notice. There are increases in natural disasters, oil are depleting, wars are increasing... Bird flu, mad cow disease, ARGH!!! I feel that the end times will come in our generation.. Yes, the sky will turn dark, angels will come with their instruments of distruction, and every people who know that Jesus Christ is LORD and not admit it will be destroyed. Wow, that is very scary. I read the book of revelation alot of times, and it is inevitable to think about what will happen in the end times. I just got pretty afraid that our parents will be destroyed too, because both my parents are unbelievers. However, Clara reminded me on what Pastor Zhuang told them while having bible study.


The LORD said, "If I find fifty righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake."
27 Then Abraham spoke up again: "Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, though I am nothing but dust and ashes, 28 what if the number of the righteous is five less than fifty? Will you destroy the whole city because of five people?" "If I find forty-five there," he said, "I will not destroy it."
29 Once again he spoke to him, "What if only forty are found there?" He said, "For the sake of forty, I will not do it."
30 Then he said, "May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak. What if only thirty can be found there?" He answered, "I will not do it if I find thirty there."
31 Abraham said, "Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, what if only twenty can be found there?" He said, "For the sake of twenty, I will not destroy it."
32 Then he said, "May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?" He answered, "For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it."
33 When the LORD had finished speaking with Abraham, he left, and Abraham returned home.The LORD said, "If I find fifty righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake."
27 Then Abraham spoke up again: "Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, though I am nothing but dust and ashes, 28 what if the number of the righteous is five less than fifty? Will you destroy the whole city because of five people?" "If I find forty-five there," he said, "I will not destroy it."
29 Once again he spoke to him, "What if only forty are found there?" He said, "For the sake of forty, I will not do it."
30 Then he said, "May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak. What if only thirty can be found there?" He answered, "I will not do it if I find thirty there."
31 Abraham said, "Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, what if only twenty can be found there?" He said, "For the sake of twenty, I will not destroy it."
32 Then he said, "May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?" He answered, "For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it."
33 When the LORD had finished speaking with Abraham, he left, and Abraham returned home.

Because of five righteous people, there will be a special grace upon the immediate family members of the five righteous. Immediately the peace of GOD just came to me. Friends, I really do not wish to see you get perish. You know how important you are to me. However, no one comes to the Father in heaven but thru Jesus Christ Himself. I am not here to preach, because the choice is yours eventually.

I might be going on a 4 yr singlehood vow, because wisdom is patience. I need to make sure that I do not get tempted in the area of relationship when I am there in Germany. Its good because if I start now, I will be very unfair for the particular someone... Sobz.. I am single now...